Wondering Hearts...Wondering what to do.

驛動的心 (The Wandering Heart) by: 姜育恒

曾經以為我的家 是一張張的票根
撕開後展開旅程 投入另外一個陌生
這樣飄蕩多少天 這樣孤單多少年
終於又回到起點 到現在我才發現

哦~
路過的人我早已忘記
經過的事已隨風而去
驛動的心已漸漸平息
疲憊的我是否有緣
和你相依

This is my favorite chinese song. It sound sad but its the reality analogy of our life. Every stage of our life is like a train ticket, from one destination to another new unfamiliar territory.

Sometimes its damn frustrating not to be able to get things done properly due to lack of equipments. Often having to resort to alternative method that is time consuming and require high degree of skills. Its so damn sian when I am not able to show the young ones the right way in the job. In the end I had to admit the limitations of our back end logistics thanks to the numerous level of process and red tapes. Often than not, I have so much improvement plans but lack the knowledge or knowhow to execute. I hope I get some enlightenment in the next few months ahead. In my head and heart, I hate to see this cycle of bureaucracy thats hindering our work and more hate to know that the junior are going to face what I experience the next time. Wish there was a more decentralized system to get our equipments. Its all about the money...

Sometimes the thought of quiting is in the mind but I'm not someone who like to ignore problem when its right in front of me. Quiting is escaping, but one can keep on running away and never be able to hide from problems. The only way is to face it and solve it. There is no other way.