Losing my trust and faith in certain people
It seems like a long week for me. Its Friday now and since I am busy been the phase servicing IC, I see a responsibility not to take day off during this period. Come to think of it, I only have 2 day off balance left so better save it up for the raining days.
Today I like to blog about my lose of trust and faith in certain people that I shall not mention names here. One thing I learn about is that it take a long period of time and effort to build trust from people you just know although its easier to do so with close friends and colleague. However all it take is one or two episode to ruin all those building blocks. I felt such a terrible waste to know that for reasons unknown, a guy I thought to be a nice fellow could tell such poor lies in front of me...
I approached him today and ask him who gave the go ahead commitment for "Plan A" (for reasons I shall not reveal whats "Plan A"). He immediately said it was my two Supervisor and another of my close colleague without batting an eyelid. However certain episode in the early part of the day tell me something was fishy with his statement thus I decided to do a mini investigation as simple as questioning my two dear Supervisor and close colleague if such commitment was ever given from them. For a starter my close colleague was on off-day yesterday and only learn about the go ahead for "Plan A" today, totally oblivious to what really going on. So my close colleague did not give the commitment - Strike 1. Next I ask my senior supervisor who I have lots of respect for even though he was really harsh sometime. He again was surprise that I ask him about the commitment for "Plan A" for he obviously did not gave that commitment. Thats Strike 2. Senior supervisor is someone who hate mystery and he called my Deputy supervisor who gave the same answer ; NO. Strike 3.
I wonder if its a lack of communication or lack of ethics with this "nice fellow" but he sure have big balls to implicate 3 person in his lies. I did not confront him at all for he is much senior ranking and I don't wanna make a ding especially when I'm heading back soon. In any case, I lost trust in any words he got from now on.
You know how the higher ranking you are, the more important you decision becomes? Its just the pyramid structure of a military organization where the decision of a few at the top affect the many below in good and bad ways. A leader not only build trust with the man through good decision/ planning but also openly admit fault and bear responsibility for poor decision/planning, bringing himself first into the pit to cushion the impact for his man.
One day I was on night shift work and got instruction that we have to head into base early in the morning the next day for some high ranking officer from HQ is going to have a dialogue session with us. "Dialogue" session is just another fancy name for meet the people session for you to raise concerns. Frankly I am not really keen to attend; I have my aircraft work to do that night, my circadian rhythms is already tune to sleep in the morning and wake up at noon and we only actually complete our work at 1am in the morning. Good soldier we all are, an order is an order so even if I have a hard time falling asleep and a hard time waking up (only slept 4 hours), I and many other still made it to base on time 8 sharp.
Than after the usual "Clean the hanger floor" session commonly done every time a VIP come visit, an annocuncement was made "GOOD NEWS!!! The dialogue session with this high ranking officer is cancelled". WTF!!! I sacrifice for early work stoppage and storing sleep debt just to hear this news? Overheard that he went shopping... I hope he is aware that some of our guys have to do a 360 degree change in rest pattern just to made it in the morning to hear his not coming. I hope he enjoy his shopping in Dallas...
Back to the present... A lower ranking specialist talk to a higher ranking specialist in a tone I find really really offensive and barbaric. High ranking specialist is the soft type even with his big size but he maintain a gentleman poise, cushioning the torrent of words from lower ranking specialist. It was a discussion about 分家产 and it could have been carried out in a much rational and gentleman manner than this. I was taken aback by the way the lower ranking specialist speaks to a higher rank because not only does his message deliver in a disrespectful and unprofessional way but even the guy beside me mention that his tone is really 过分. I swear to God I never speak to a higher ranking guy or even some lower ranking than me in this tone so I am really turn off by this episode. I really lost respect for lower ranking specialist... Sometimes people who talk loud and big are deaf to their own speech, not wonder they have to shout at others to make themselves heard.
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